Dear Mutsumi,
How are you doing?
I have known that you went to the Italian Embassy with Haruka. It is good to know that she is well. I would like to see her and pass some time with her.
I am writing you because, once again, I would like to find a compromise. I would like to speak between two adults that act in an international way.
I am not in anger with you anymore... I am just sad because everybody can see my daughter and I am the only one who cannot.
But deeply inside me, I am still really happy of having known you. I really thank you for the chance you gave me and the beautiful moments passed together. With you I have get the part I was missing of the whole picture to understand life and society.
I apologize for having been so nervous with you in the past; I was so tired and stressed. I have tried what I could and it wasn’t enough. You have made me a big gift for life that I haven’t been able to give back, I am sorry!
In court I have done well. I liked myself and I don’t look for any kind of revenge.
I know that you lied about your staying in Italy: you went in Naples and Amalfi too (I always desired to go there together with you). However I will not say to anybody about your lies. I think that you already have put yourself in a bad position. I don’t want to push it too far. I don’t have any interest to make things worst. I hope that everything will finish with the judjment on March the 8th.
I think that I have done what I could to show my goodwill and good faith. I have done what I had to do in order to try to create a relationship with Haruka. She is my daughter too, even though Japanese law consider me an alien. Fighting more it may be too dangerous, not for me, but for your and Haruka’s life. I am tired. And I have to think for my future since it seems I have developed some health problem (multiple sclerosis?). There is the need of other medical tests though. It might be something else.
I just don’t understand why you cannot see that my only aim is to really love and help Haruka and not harm you. I have tried everything.
Bye.
Andrea
P.S.: Don't let your mental illness overwhelm your intelligence. Your intelligence is crystalline, evident; you see things that other people cannot. Your only problem is your anxiety and your impulsiveness. You want your desires realized immediately, you are unable to wait, and it often ends that you lose everything. It is a pity, because you are a great person!
