Silent tears...

This morning, before to get up, I am in the bed, thinking of you... tears start to well in my eyes. I am not really crying, I am suffering, silently. Alone. I really miss you. And my love is not considered. Sobbing I know that this is my destiny. It is time to start the day. Another day where I have to hide my feelings because for me it isn't allowed having loved someone. And this will last for the remaining days of my life. But I am proud of my pure love for you that I will never regret or renegade!   

New advice... + Haruka's present

Dear Mutsumi,

How are you and Haruka doing?

I am at another turning point of my life.

The 19th of November I will finish the Master on Eating Disorders. In order to finish it I had to give up some counseling job so I have to find new opportunities.

In January hopefully the divorce situation will be defined, so it will be the chance to plan the future.

So now I have to decide where to address my life. After your advice to return on Food Technologies, things are gone better. Hard period and not easy to set, but quite better. I really thank you! I have found the happiness in a job even though I always have my periods of fatigue and stress where I get lost. But I have learnt to stay calm and believe that sooner or later it will come again the will to go ahead.

Now I have to invest some more money and time, in order to improve my skills and be a better professional in my field, in order to try to earn more money for a better economical situation, and have more chances of work.

I don't know where to direct myself since every choice is expensive and not so sure.

In this moment, I really would like to have one of your advice... I would like to speak with you about this topic because I know that you may give me a good and wise perspective about the issue, evaluating the different choices (helping me to avoid having too much dreaming). 

Since this email address is set only for sending photos of Haruka and discuss about her needs, I take the chance to send to you the link of a possible Christmas present for her.

https://www.amazon.co.jp/gp/product/B01N0VQZYQ/ref=ox_sc_act_title_1?smid=AN1VRQENFRJN5&psc=1

If I have understood well, this toy works in Japanese and English. If you reckon that this can be a right present for her, just let me know. If you prefer something different, more suitable or a different thing, just let me know.

If I will not hear anything from you, I will probably buy this.

Bye!

Andrea

By the way...

October, 29th 2018

Hi Mutsumi,

I’ve casually seen that Princess Ayako getting married... she has a sincere face...

So I’ve thought about our marriage and I can confirm that in that day you were the most beautiful woman on the face of Earth: incredibly beautiful!

By the way, since we are divorcing, before it, I have taken the chance to dedicate my thesis to you. This is the inscription:

To my Wife Mutsumi,

because

She has been the most beautiful part of my life,

She has taught me so many things,

and She put the basis for a feasible future!

I was thinking about the Christmas present for Haruka.... I know that it is early but I don’t have anything else to do in life. In order to avoid to bother you too much, I ask you now if you have some idea or suggestion.

If I will not hear from you, I have found something that it might be interesting... However I’ll submit the idea to you before buy it.

Ok, time to go!

Take care!

Bye.

Andrea