Summons and thank you...

Dear Mutsumi,

I just received the summons of the Court for January. As soon as I can I will choose the date and I will answer.

I am surprised! Three judges this time and they haven't decided yet if the trial has to be held in Japan or in Italy!

So I thank you for having accepted the presents of Haruka: I thought that everything was already done about the decision of the Court.

And I thank you for having sent me the photos. (I know that this is just your kindness!)

Last night I haven't slept well because I keep dreaming Haruka. However it has been a great joy receive the photos so I can see her growing.

At the same time I don't understand where we are going: spending all this money for nothing.... Money really important for Haruka's life. And time... And nerves...

I really don't care win something at the trial because if you don't want me, my life is meaningless and the trial doesn't change anything. Everything is already ruined and I will never recover these 3 years and the relationship with Haruka is lost forever.

At the same time I cannot give up for many reasons. But I am quite tired.

If you have any suggestion to overcome this situation, I am always ready to listen.

In the next months I will ask to see Haruka in January when I will come.

Bye for now and thank you again!!!!

Andrea

Haruka's Birthday, the most important day of the year!

August, 16th 2018

Dear Mutsumi,

please give to Haruka my Happy Birthday wishes and give her a kiss for me.

Today is the most important day of the year for me. And it will be always a day of sufferance.

My dream is that one day I will have the chance to show to Haruka the places where I live and go at least once at the seaside, taking an holiday on this day. And feeling the same emotions I had when I was child and in summer period we used to go at the seaside, feeling the smell of salted water and waiting for sunset.

If there will be a day like that, I will be happy and hopefully my sufferance will cease.

Thank you again for the photos of yesterday. I was really really surprised, I really didn’t expect it. I have cried, in a mix of joy and despair. In my loneliness.

Bye.

Andrea

P.S. When I was a young child I used to suffer a little bit of asthma. The doctor suggested to stay at the seaside as form of help (that works for everybody, not only if there is a health condition). So if also Haruka needs this remedy, don’t hesitate to come here along her, I will pay as much as I can, hopefully everything (flights, staying, food, amusement parks etc.). Here there is a zoo at the city near the seaside. However the better periods for a child are June and September. In July and August is quite hot with the chance to go out only in the morning and in the late afternoon.

(Unexpected 3 photos)

August, 15th 2018

Dear Mutsumi,

with an undefinable emotion in my heart I receive these photos...

It means a lot for me!

Thank you!

You made my day....

Haruka's Presents

August, 7th 2018

In some way, with a lot of challenges, I succeeded in doing an account on Amazon -Japan.
And with other difficult actions I've sent some present to Haruka.

I have done only the minimun since I didn't know if she would receive them and if Mutsumi would have threw them away...

However I was happy and I have tried!!!!!!!

On life and on Haruka's birthday

Dear Mutsumi,

yesterday was another beautiful day in this empty life....

After 3 years following the separation from you, after having lost the relationship with a daughter, after the death of my mother, now there are more beautiful days than bad days.

Yesterday I was thinking of you and Haruka, deeply but with serenity.

Without you and Haruka my life is empty but it can be still a life. Even though you have another life, I can think of you as a precious experience that I will keep inside me, forever, without the need to justify it, without feeling shame if you have other relationships...

Do you know anything about the divorce? The time is passing and I need to plan my future.

And now the most important thing: Haruka’s Birthday!

I have already asked you if I could send money or a present to her. For me it is important.

I really cannot understand why in Japan you have this type of philosophy that it needs to cut the relationships among relatives. And cheating in order to demonstrate that the father abandoned a child, even though it isn’t true.

Since I haven’t received any answer from you, I will act as I reckon the best.

Bye.

Andrea

P.S. And when the Piano was playing, when my friend was making the video, I was thinking about Haruka and Mutsumi...
The hat was a present of Otosan and the jacket was a present of Mutsumi...